louisehastings

Three years ago you broke my heart, But still I held on to you. You broke me and shattered my heart, But still I held on to you. I forgave you and loved you And stayed your friend But you crushed me again and again. And I, I still held on to you. After three years the pieces are still broken But I am still holding on to you I am still broken, I am still shattered But still I am not giving up on you! I am still here, I am still your friend And you continue to hurt me But I, I am still holding on to you

I hate the 1st May. A couple of years ago I have been dating a guy, Jake. We haven't been in a relationship yet, but he told me every day how much he loved me. And for me it certainly felt like being in a relationship. Then came the 30th April and all the May dances started. I couldn’t go that year, because I had been to a seminar. Therefore, Jake went alone. The next morning he wrote me a message, saying that he had slept with another girl during the Party and was in a relationship with her now. And my heart was shattered into millions of little pieces and never got repaired again…

He likes beautiful girls and I am clearly not beautiful. He is outgoing and I don’t even talk to people. I am afraid that once I start talking to people that they will see what’s really inside of me. That they will see my darkest secrets and they are too dark to be allowed to get out. That’s why I have to stay away from people, why I never get attached to someone. At least I never did until I met him. I just can’t stay away from him. He is like a magnet drawing me closer to him and it’s crazy and freaking me out. I blame it on his eyes. They are so shiny and sparkling that I am just drawn to them. And it seems th

I am at his wedding and tears run down my cheeks. It hurts so much knowing that I have lost him now for real, knowing that I have lost the only guy I ever really loved. It tears my heart apart. I am sitting in the back row of the church silently crying, but I can’t handle it any longer. It’s killing me inside. I can barely breathe. I go outside. I need fresh air. I need to breathe again. I find a place around the corner of the church. I sit down lining against a wall. My body feels so weak and I am empty inside. I put my head inside my hands and just let the dears roll down, starting to sop, starting to cry like a baby. “

I am cought in a Cage, wandering around, searching for a way to escape, but I cannot find one. I am longing to stop wandering. I am longing to finally break out of my Cage. I finally want to find a place to rest, but my hope is Fading away. It is getting darker and darker around me and I cannot even see the stars anymore, because I have lost the moon. And I start running through the darkness, trying to find a place to escape, but I will never rich home...

He is the most beautiful Person I have ever seen and I can barelly look away from him. But I have to let him go eventually. He will leave me sooner or later, because if he stays he could never reach his dreams. I would just hold him back.

A Story about a Girls search for everything. Trying to find her way in life. Trough pain, through doubts, through hope, through Love... Hey, I don't think you know me. I am that Kind of Girl who sits in a crowdof People being completely unnoticed. The Kind of Girl everyone somehow knows she is there, but nobody gives her a second look. Therefore, I have learned to live my life alone with mysef. Sharing my Problems ony with myself and God... So everybody has a spiritual gift? I wonder what gift is mine, because I feel that I am always average. No matter what I do I am just average. I am nothing special. I have no special talents. My grades a